How I feel about me being a writer

Writing for me, honestly, is not exciting and maybe even a little scary. It seems almost a waste of my time, sadly enough. Putting out my paper or thoughts for the world to see is not something I typically enjoy, at all. When and if I am to ever write, it's most likely only for my reading and in a personal journal that happens to be tucked away on a dark shelf. I've also have never felt that I express my thoughts well on paper. Therefore, I'd rather get straight to the point and skip the rest of the paragraphs. Long drawn out papers typically bore me and I usually don't even enjoy reading them. I'd much rather pick up small paragraphed things like magazines or interesting short stories in the paper. In all though, Argumentative papers are probably my favorite and I tend to enjoy writing those more so than others. Also, writing is something I have to do on my time. Picking up at random times and going doesn't work for me. I have to be in the mindset for it, otherwise, I have too many other thoughts rolling through my head. Overall though, my goal is to one day be a better expressed and more thought out writer.